Love My Tribe

I’ve been searching for “my tribe” my entire life.

It’s taken me 48 years to find them .

I got stuck in the wrong tribe and due to the longing I had to belong, I stayed even though I never really fit. Yes, I looked like them, but still didn’t belong.

One day I wandered into another tribe and discovered not only that I fit…. but that they had been waiting for me.

No more “square peg in the round hole” feeling.
I have found my tribe…… I’m gonna LOVE them HARD.




I’m rebelling ( dissenting from an accepted moral code or convention of behavior, dress, etc.) against what society/Hollywood deems as the beautiful over 40 look.


Like Really???

Who says they get the ruling opinion about how I should look in my aging years? I am embracing every beautifully grown and silver-ish gray piece of hair I have……after all, God gave it to me….. just like my blue eyes, It’s me, it’s a part of who I am.


The mindset “you have to have a size 2 body, non-aging hair, and skin, firm “body” or you are not attractive” is a lie. In fact… there is nothing to support it.

No, I don’t believe there’s anything wrong with coloring your hair per se however, the underlying intentions/reason maybe more of an issue of our heart than we’re willing to publicly admit. That is a subject for another day. (subscribe to my blog to be sure you don’t miss it)


I woke up one day and realized that I had been comparing myself to women who are just as insecure as I was, who also was looking to the media to deem what was the perfect over 40 specimen.


Help me except myself and the process in which my body is growing into my older years. Help me see the beauty in my gray, the experience in my fine lines engraved into my skin… help me LOVE me.

Thanks for reading.
It is my prayer that you are encouraged to come out from among them and embrace YOU as God created.

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Bind My Wandering Heart to Thee.

Come, Thou Fount of Every Blessing
O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I’m constrained to be!
Let Thy goodness, like a fetter,
Bind my wandering heart to Thee.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here’s my heart, O take and seal it,
Seal it for Thy courts above.
I remember a time in my life when I was pulled ever so slightly at one point or another into sin. Sometimes I was aware of what I was doing and then there were times that I spiritually woke up became conscious of the fact and realized that I had detoured from the path and His righteousness.
After much thought, I made a decision.
Was I going to keep falling into the same old sin and keep going around the same mountain over and over again or was I going to change some behaviors, attitudes and my environment that would enable me to make better life choices?
Compared to eternity, my life is only as a second here on earth and eternity is a long time to be wrong.
My prayer: Oh Father, bind my wandering heart to thee.

Created to Connect



NOTE: You may need to view from a web browser if you do not see video. It does not seem to always show when viewing from WordPress application.

It can be easy to miss the point of the video.

Hint: It has nothing to do with her needing help… but everything to do with the need to connect with each other on an intimate level. (intimacy = into me you see)

We’re uniquely created like that… with a need to connect.

I admit, I have often gotten caught up being so “busy” (dishes, laundry, cooking, paying bills, auto maintenance, being a mom, ministry) that I have failed to “see” the person I married. Though I see “A” man, I have often failed to see past the “man” and see the person.. “my husband.” and in doing so, I have forgotten to be the “wife.”

I want to be a good wife, and sometimes I measure my success as a wife by the amount of things I do… when it’s really not about that. It’s everything about how I “am the wife to my husband” by giving of myself “to” him in quality time and attention. Something I’m going to purpose in my heart to work on.

I‘m thankful for this reminder. Thank you, Alexandria Lucas, for sharing this with me. I needed this.

Thank You, Heavenly Father for marriage… that’s designed to be like our relationship with you.

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Video Credit: Bright Side

Author (Video) Credit: Richard Paul Evans

Her Absence​

I once read “when you truly miss someone, their absence speaks greater that the presence of others.”

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Many days ago I was driving home, and I began to think about her approaching birthday. I miss her today as much as I did at first when she went home. So very much.

I can still see her sitting across the table from me as we drank coffee together. I can hear her laugh and see her smile. Truthfully I’ve never seen anyone smile as big as her. A smile that made every worry disappear.

This particular day the tears flowed more so than they ever had before. Even voicing how much I miss her cannot express the depth of her absence in my life. As I moved my hand to wipe the tears from my cheek, I realized ………. she still can make me smile.

Happy birthday my sweet friend.
You are greatly missed.
Until we meet again.

Ear the Heart

I remember one year at a Texas District Youth Camp Meeting, the speaker asked for volunteers to play the instruments on the platform.

From the congregation of quickly raised hands, he selected one volunteer for each instrument.
Not one of them had ever played an instrument before.
He said on the count of three for everyone to start playing.
I wasn’t sure how it was going to turn out; I knew one thing, it could only go one way or the other.
It could’ve been exceptionally miraculously beautiful, or absolutely horrendously awful!

Or so I thought😉
On the count of three,  everyone started playing their instruments.
To my ears, it was absolutely awful, but at the very second they begin playing, I experienced something amazing that had never happened to me before.

it was like I was being refilled with the Holy Ghost ….. and I heard God speak “No matter what anybody says, it will always be praise to Me.”
We hear with the natural ear, and it is very much different from what God hears. He hears the intents our hearts.

He IS an awesome God!!!
What is the intent of your heart speaking today?